I have always wanted so much from life. The best education I could handle and afford, getting to know all kinds of people from all walks of life, seing places, starting over a million times to live and learn. I think today is such a new start. I had ended up in a whirlwind of online chaos after making "the wrong friends", while they were in fact the right friends, and now my old name is worn out and abused. And here I start over, as if the last three years never happened, though I know they did and they will always be in the back of my mind trying to get back to the front of my mind.
It all started with honesty, I suppose. Due to certain events, suddenly I found myself in the spotlight of an online community, and all my past honesties were out on the web, ready to be abused, taken out of context and used against me, while in fact I had done nothing but be in the wrong place at the wrong time. It went up to a point where I feared that I would forget that I am who I am in my life, not what strangers call me online. It's time for a blank sheet to remember who I am.
I am also thinking about changing my e-mail address, though I already did that half a year ago due to other circumstances. Sometimes, you can't just let things roll on their own, sometimes you have to step in and redefine who you are and what your life is. You can't always just take things as they come, because if you do you end up a victim and that's the last thing I want to be. It will be hard to get rid of the old "friends", but more so the memories will always be there and I will have to find a place for them. All I can do is leave the harbour and sail out to find a new one, can't I?